So a couple weeks ago Shane and I were talking one evening and he showed me a movie trailer for 'just let go' that is coming to theaters soon. Its about a man who lost his wife, unborn child and 2 other children in a car accident caused by a 17 year old drunk driver. In the trailer toward the end it says "why me, why did this happen to me?" and then the husband going through this trial came to the conclusion of "why not me?" It stuck out to both me and my husband and we were talking about it later. So many times we question things that happen or go wrong in our lives. So many times we ask why me or how could you do this to me. When we are faced with difficulty in our lives through trials, deaths, financial difficulties and many other things, it is often hard to see the positive things in our lives and we tend to dwel on the negative. A lot of times after the storm has passed and things start to look up and we may get what we were hoping for we can often see why things were the way they were or are. For example, when I was struggling with infertility I would get angry and be so upset that Heavenly Father wasn't blessing me with a child that I so desperately wanted and longed for. After 4.5 year of trying to have a baby we were shocked and surprised to find out we were expecting. Even when our precious baby was born so early and we spent 3 weeks in the NICU it was hard and sometimes I asked why me. But after all that I have been able to look back and see why things happened the way they did and I have been able to appreciate my baby more and appreciate what Heavenly Father has given me. He has given me an amazing gift and He is trusting me with this wonderful soul. When we want something we want it now, we don't want to wait and be patient. I have learned to trust in my Heavenly Father's plan for me. He knows what is best for me, He knows my wants and wishes, but He also knows my needs and capabilities.
All that being said, it is still hard to go through difficult times and sometimes to have the faith we need to get through it. We have these difficult times to make us stronger, better people. We can either learn from the things we have to go through or we can give up and stay miserable.
Back the the 'why not me' part of the film, I have been pondering on it since I watched the trailer. I have thought about how that can humble us a little bit. Someone else out in the world can be fighting a greater battle, someone else can have a harder circumstance to bear. That phrase has made me look at things a little differently. How am I any better than the next person that has to deal with trials similar to mine? I am not perfect and I still have a lot of learning and growing to do in this lifetime. We knew we would face trials in this life when we agreed to gain a body and come to earth. We know that we need to get through these hard times in order to make it back home with our Heavenly Father. So instead of questioning His plan for us, let us think 'why not me.' We can focus of the positive rather than the negative and go through our dificult times with faith and hopefully someday we will be able to understand why we had to go through them. Heavenly Father is always with us and knows what we are going through. He understands. He had to bear burdens so great we could never understand. He was perfect and he still had to pass through difficult times. He bled from every pore for OUR sins, not His own. He had to be tortured and nailed to a cross for US, for OUR salvation so that we could be forgiven and return home. He knew what He had to do and He did it. I would assume He never questioned 'why me' or 'how could you do this to me'...He knew why and He understood why it was so crucial for Him to go through all He had to endure.
Maybe next time when we have to go through something hard or difficult we can say why not me and try and become better, more faithful and knowledgeable.
Wednesday, September 30, 2015
Monday, September 14, 2015
7-14 months
Axel has learned so much and is growing so fast. Since I am a little behind on the blog I am going to update from 6 mos to a year.
At 7 Months old he can sit, does a fake cough (that is pretty hilarious), says gaga and enjoys peek-a-boo.
9 Months old he can say mama, wave bye bye, can sign all done, he loves to make motorboat noise, loves to play catch, he shakes his head no no, he has learned to growl, yell and throw fits (which are super fun). He has a few new things where he puts both arms straight behind him like he is flying backwards and with his left arm he puts up by his ear with his hand in a fist (we call it the superman/superbaby arm).
10 months old he calls Shane dada or bob :) he gets on his hands and knees, claps his hands and likes to cross his feet when sitting. He can feed himself finger foods and likes to pinch peoples neck. He loves his blankie and likes to rub the corners of it under his nose, on his cheeks and hands and likes to chew on the corners as well. He doesn't like to try and hold his own bottle so while I hold it for him he likes to play with his ears and my face and neck or pull my hair.
11 months he reaches his arms when he wants you, does the army crawl, pulls himself up on furniture and figures out how to full on crawl. He likes to put his finger in other peoples mouth and hang upside down.
12 months old he is into everything (we call him the master of disaster) and throws everything, including food and toys, he has a fake laugh, he eats solid food, loves to be outside, finally got two bottom teeth popping through, likes to point to things or people with his finger, he tries to share his binkie, gives hugs and puts phones up to his ear and jibber jabbers (it is so darn cute!) His last checkup he was 19 lbs 12 oz (3%) and 30.5 in. long (75%)
13 months he can take a few steps and says uh-oh, bye bye, baba, mama, dada, nana, papa. He is starting to imitate sounds and noises and likes to empty toys or clothes from a bin.
14 months he loves to be chased and held and is a huge mama's boy. He likes pat-a-cake, this little piggy, and music. He loves to play with other kids, he hates when I am out of sight and sometimes gets frustrated when he can't do something himself. He can say peek-a-boo, thank you and is trying to imitate sounds of dogs barking, cows mooing and birds chirping. He is getting so good at throwing and catching a ball. He is taking several steps by himself and getting more comfortable with walking. He has become quite the fit thrower when he doesn't get his way and screams when he is mad. He has an awesome fake laugh and cough. He now has 4 teeth, 2 on top and 2 on bottom. He is so active and fun, we can't imagine life without him.
At 7 Months old he can sit, does a fake cough (that is pretty hilarious), says gaga and enjoys peek-a-boo.
9 Months old he can say mama, wave bye bye, can sign all done, he loves to make motorboat noise, loves to play catch, he shakes his head no no, he has learned to growl, yell and throw fits (which are super fun). He has a few new things where he puts both arms straight behind him like he is flying backwards and with his left arm he puts up by his ear with his hand in a fist (we call it the superman/superbaby arm).
10 months old he calls Shane dada or bob :) he gets on his hands and knees, claps his hands and likes to cross his feet when sitting. He can feed himself finger foods and likes to pinch peoples neck. He loves his blankie and likes to rub the corners of it under his nose, on his cheeks and hands and likes to chew on the corners as well. He doesn't like to try and hold his own bottle so while I hold it for him he likes to play with his ears and my face and neck or pull my hair.
11 months he reaches his arms when he wants you, does the army crawl, pulls himself up on furniture and figures out how to full on crawl. He likes to put his finger in other peoples mouth and hang upside down.
12 months old he is into everything (we call him the master of disaster) and throws everything, including food and toys, he has a fake laugh, he eats solid food, loves to be outside, finally got two bottom teeth popping through, likes to point to things or people with his finger, he tries to share his binkie, gives hugs and puts phones up to his ear and jibber jabbers (it is so darn cute!) His last checkup he was 19 lbs 12 oz (3%) and 30.5 in. long (75%)
13 months he can take a few steps and says uh-oh, bye bye, baba, mama, dada, nana, papa. He is starting to imitate sounds and noises and likes to empty toys or clothes from a bin.
14 months he loves to be chased and held and is a huge mama's boy. He likes pat-a-cake, this little piggy, and music. He loves to play with other kids, he hates when I am out of sight and sometimes gets frustrated when he can't do something himself. He can say peek-a-boo, thank you and is trying to imitate sounds of dogs barking, cows mooing and birds chirping. He is getting so good at throwing and catching a ball. He is taking several steps by himself and getting more comfortable with walking. He has become quite the fit thrower when he doesn't get his way and screams when he is mad. He has an awesome fake laugh and cough. He now has 4 teeth, 2 on top and 2 on bottom. He is so active and fun, we can't imagine life without him.
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
6 Months
Axel is half a year old! It has went by so fast and he is growing so much and learning new things all the time. He can reach for objects, he likes to look at himself in the mirror, he can roll both ways, he loves to play with and eat on his toes and fingers, gets excited when he sees mommy and daddy, is starting to babble and has the cutest little laugh. He doesn't love to be tickled and is pretty hard to get laughs out of. He is starting to like peek a boo and he puts everything in his mouth. We started him on cereal and baby food which he wasn't too sure about at first. His favorites are carrots, bananas, pears and raspberries. He is starting to sleep better at night and is starting to enjoy bath time a little more. He likes to babble, has figured out how to make other noises and likes to feel and pull my hair. I love this little boy with all my heart!!
Christmas/ 5 Mo
5 Months old Axel is starting to do better with tummy time, he gets excited when he sees his bottle, he is very jumpy to loud sounds and is a smiley baby boy. He is starting to not have his hands in fists so much and likes to watch peoples face and his mobile. Axel has always been an active little boy, he likes to kick his legs and move his arms like he is trying to run. He is in his own room in his crib now and has adjusted well. He is no longer sleeping in the car seat, his reflux is getting better and his colic is gone. He is a good and happy baby. He is in 6 month clothes and still size 2 diaper.
Axel had his first Christmas at my parents house with my side of the family. We stayed Christmas Eve there and played games, frosted cookies and had good food. We woke up Christmas morning about 9:00 and waited for everyone else to wake up. We started the day with opening presents, which was a blast even though he had no idea what was going on. We spent the rest of the day visiting and playing games and eating. We had a great Christmas.
Axel had his first Christmas at my parents house with my side of the family. We stayed Christmas Eve there and played games, frosted cookies and had good food. We woke up Christmas morning about 9:00 and waited for everyone else to wake up. We started the day with opening presents, which was a blast even though he had no idea what was going on. We spent the rest of the day visiting and playing games and eating. We had a great Christmas.
Thanksgiving/ 4 Mo
4 months old Axel is still struggling with reflux and colic which breaks my heart; I hate to see my baby in pain and cry for long periods of time. Thankfully the omeprazole and gripe water help him. At his 4 mo checkup he was 12 lbs, 6 oz and 23 in long. He is in 3-6 and 6 month clothes and size 2 diapers. He is starting to love one of his blankies from grandma Call and enjoys being cuddled and rocked. He enjoys being in his swing and sleeps in it throughout the day. We have him sleeping in a carseat due to his reflux and that seems to help at night. He is still sleeping in our room next to our bed; daddy would like him in his own room, but I'm not ready for him to move yet. It's comforting to me to be able to reach over and pat him back to sleep or give him his binkie and know he is breathing and doing ok. He is starting to show his little personality as well and will open his mouth to give me kisses.
2 Days after his checkup we watched Dez and Mikes girls for 10 days while they went on vacation with my parents. I soon realized it was A LOT of work having 3 kids to take care of and Axel was the easy one. It's a good thing I love those girls so much! It was a little crazy and chaotic and sometimes stressful, but it was also fun. The girls loved helping with Axel and Brie loved to hold him. Rae struggled a little bit not being the baby and kept wanting me to hold her.
For Thanksgiving this year we went to Utah to spend it with Shane's side. We had fun being with family and we ate a lot! Axel on the other hand was not having too much fun. I don't know if he wasn't feeling well or if there were too many people and he was having some anxiety, but he was super fussy and just wanted to be held by mom and dad. That night Shane and his dad gave him a blessing to try and help him feel better and soon after that he calmed down a little. On black Friday I went out shopping with Jen and that was fun to get away for a little while.
2 Days after his checkup we watched Dez and Mikes girls for 10 days while they went on vacation with my parents. I soon realized it was A LOT of work having 3 kids to take care of and Axel was the easy one. It's a good thing I love those girls so much! It was a little crazy and chaotic and sometimes stressful, but it was also fun. The girls loved helping with Axel and Brie loved to hold him. Rae struggled a little bit not being the baby and kept wanting me to hold her.
For Thanksgiving this year we went to Utah to spend it with Shane's side. We had fun being with family and we ate a lot! Axel on the other hand was not having too much fun. I don't know if he wasn't feeling well or if there were too many people and he was having some anxiety, but he was super fussy and just wanted to be held by mom and dad. That night Shane and his dad gave him a blessing to try and help him feel better and soon after that he calmed down a little. On black Friday I went out shopping with Jen and that was fun to get away for a little while.
Blessing/3 mo/ Halloween
3 Months old! I can't believe how fast time is flying by. Axel enjoys being held, rocked, being talked to, his binky and eating. He is growing great and looks healthy. He is in 3 month clothes and size 1 diapers.
On October 12, 2014, Axel was blessed by his amazing daddy! The blessing outfit we had bought was way too big on him so we decided to get him blessed in his uncle Derek's blessing outfit that he was blessed in 27 years previous. It was such a special day for us. In the circle we had Shane, my dad (Kelly), Shane's dad (Bruce), Axel's uncles: Caleb, Morgan, Jake, Mike, my uncle Craig and Bishop Morris. It was also special having Axel in Derek's outfit because we felt like that was part of Derek in the circle with Axel. Shane gave such a beautiful blessing and I felt the spirit so strong.
After the blessing we had a luncheon at the McCammon city hall building. We had lots of family there to share Axel's special day with us. We had sloppy joes, salad and dessert.
On Halloween Axel and I went to Pocatello with my parents to meet Dez and her family at her house. Before the church trunk or treat we got to see Derek and his family for a little while. I had Axel dressed in a little skeleton outfit that aunt Dez had bought him. Axel slept the whole time during the trunk or treat so that was nice that I didn't have to take him out in the cold weather. Brie and Rae had a good time getting candy and were excited about how much they got.
After trunk or treat we meet up with Shane at Perkins to have dinner. There was us, my parents, Dez and Mike and the girls. Axel did pretty good at the restaurant and we had a good Halloween.
On October 12, 2014, Axel was blessed by his amazing daddy! The blessing outfit we had bought was way too big on him so we decided to get him blessed in his uncle Derek's blessing outfit that he was blessed in 27 years previous. It was such a special day for us. In the circle we had Shane, my dad (Kelly), Shane's dad (Bruce), Axel's uncles: Caleb, Morgan, Jake, Mike, my uncle Craig and Bishop Morris. It was also special having Axel in Derek's outfit because we felt like that was part of Derek in the circle with Axel. Shane gave such a beautiful blessing and I felt the spirit so strong.
After the blessing we had a luncheon at the McCammon city hall building. We had lots of family there to share Axel's special day with us. We had sloppy joes, salad and dessert.
On Halloween Axel and I went to Pocatello with my parents to meet Dez and her family at her house. Before the church trunk or treat we got to see Derek and his family for a little while. I had Axel dressed in a little skeleton outfit that aunt Dez had bought him. Axel slept the whole time during the trunk or treat so that was nice that I didn't have to take him out in the cold weather. Brie and Rae had a good time getting candy and were excited about how much they got.
After trunk or treat we meet up with Shane at Perkins to have dinner. There was us, my parents, Dez and Mike and the girls. Axel did pretty good at the restaurant and we had a good Halloween.
Monday, September 15, 2014
2 Months
At Axel’s 2 month appointment he weighed 8 lbs 7 oz and was
21 in long. He is growing so fast. Right now he loves to be held and rocked, his
binky and eating. He is getting more control of his head and is not a huge fan
of tummy time. He has acid reflux and just got put on omeprazole to help him
with it. He doesn’t give much of a warning of when he is getting hungry, but he
is very good at letting you know when he wants food as soon as he realizes he
is hungry (as in asleep one minute to screaming the next saying I want food now!)
He is in between newborn and size 1 diapers, newborn are getting a little too
small and size 1 is huge. It is the same with clothes; we just started putting
him in 0-3 month clothes and most of them are a little too big. He is starting
to fill out and getting some chubby cheeks. We love him more than anything in
the world and we love to watch him grow and develop. He is such a good baby; we
are so extremely blessed to have him. I love being a mommy; it is the best job
in the world!
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