On December 18, 2013 was one of the best, most exciting days
of my life. I was a day late of my cycle and decided to take a pregnancy test.
I figured it would come back negative, because it always did in the past. To my
surprise the test came back positive, so I took another one and it too came
back positive. I started to cry and pace around my house and pray out loud to
Heavenly Father to let this be true and real. I was so shocked and so excited I
called Shane, who was at work, to tell him our amazing news. I was crying and
blubbering that I took a pregnancy test and got two pink lines. He couldn’t
really understand what I was saying due to my crying, but he finally put two
and two together and got it. We did a blood test later that day to get a second
confirmation. On December 20th I went to the temple with my parents
and when they came to pick me up I gave them a poem to read. They both started
to cry. My dad, being the humorous guy that he is, says, “So you’re knocked up?”
I said, “Yep I’m knocked up.” He replied, “Finally got passed the goalie?” I
said, “yep, finally!” We all had a little laugh and continued to the temple. It
was so nice and comforting to be there that day, especially to show my
gratitude. On December 21st we drove down to Shane’s parent’s house
for Christmas. We were there for a little while and I couldn’t contain my
excitement any longer. We pulled Shane’s parents aside and gave them a copy of
the poem as well. They got teary eyed and gave us a hug. After that we broke
the news to everyone else. It was the best, most amazing Christmas surprise
ever. On January 22, 2014 we got to have our first appointment with the nurse. I
was 9 weeks pregnant and the nurse was nice enough to feel around for a while
until she found the heartbeat. It was an amazing sound and so comforting to be
able to hear. This miracle has made me realize how blessed I really am and that
my Heavenly Father cares about me and is listening to my prayers. He is mindful
of my wants and needs. It has been so humbling to see how He has been shaping
me the last 4.5 years to prepare me for this experience. Even when I thought He
wasn’t there or listening to me, I now realize that He was always there, He never
left me alone. It was just my own anger and frustration that was keeping me
from being so close to Him.
Here is a copy of the poem we gave to our parents.
I do not have a face to see,
Or put inside a frame.
I do not have soft cheeks to
kiss.
I don’t yet have a name.
You can’t yet hold my tiny
hands,
Nor whisper in my ear.
It’s still too soon to sing a
song,
Or cuddle me so near.
But all will change come August
2014;
That’s when Mom says I’m due.
I am your new grandson or granddaughter;
And I can’t wait to meet you!
All I ask between now and then
Is your patience while I grow.
I promise I’ll be worth the
wait;
Because of all the love we’ll
know!
So what I have to give you now,
Is a wish to you from me.
I cannot wait to be a part
Of this wonderful family!
