Baby back

On Friday, January 13, 2011 we got our beautiful foster baby back. On Wednesday the 11th our case worker called and asked if we wanted our baby back. Shane and I were both so excited. We couldn't wait to see him again. It was weird not having him for the 2 weeks he was at his grandpa's house. He is growing everyday and learning new things. He is talking a lot more and is pulling himself up on toys and furniture. He is really fast at the army crawl and is eating regular food. He is such a joy to have in our home. He will be turning one February 24. We are excited to celebrate his 1st birthday.

Infertility

Yesterday I was having a really hard day. Infertility is really hard to deal with sometimes. It seems like everyone around me is getting pregnant and I just can't seem to.  I often wonder why I'm not able to and what I am supposed to do in order to become a mom. A year ago it seemed so simple. Shane and I thought that we needed to adopt first, then we would get pregnant with our own. It seems like everything just went downhill all at once. Now I have no idea if we are supposed to be looking into adoption options right now or not. Since my surgery in August things have gotten a little more complicated. Dr. Cox gave us a year before in vitro was really our only option for conceiving. We feel like we should be trying to get pregnant now that we have a window open, but it doesn't seem to be helping or going anywhere. I just wish I knew what God had planned for me, it would make life so much easier.