Birthday

For some reason this year I was dreading my birthday. I didn't want to turn 27. I'm not sure why it was hard for me this year. Shane made it special for me though like he always does. We went to a movie the night before and on Saturday after work we went to destinations inn in Idaho Falls. It was nice to get away for a little while. And of course he spoiled me with gifts as well. on Sunday we celebrated Mothers Day with the fam and had cake for my birthday. I thought Mothers Day was going to be really hard on me this year. But to my surprise I woke up Sunday feeling ok and I thought about how thankful I am for my mother who is always there for me and loves and supports me no matter what. I thought about how thankful I am for Shane's mom who is always there for us and loves me like one of her own. And for my sister and sister in laws for the wonderful mothers they are to my amazing nieces and nephews. I learn so much from these women and I am so glad I have them in my life. I absolutely love being an Aunt!

Update

4 years of trying with no luck. Some days are still really hard and other days I have to keep telling myself that there is a plan for us and our time will come, hopefully sooner rather than later, but I know that when our time does come, it will be well worth the wait. I can't imagine my life without Shane. He is my rock! When I am weak, he is strong. When I have fallen apart he glues my puzzle pieces back together so I can see the big picture once again. I couldn't have asked for a better eternal companion. We have had our shares of ups and downs, but we have become so much stronger from them. I have learned a lot from this ongoing trial of mine. I have learned to be a little more patient, I have learned to not take family for granted, I have learned that when I am in my darkest moments someone is always there to comfort me and let me know that I will be okay, I have learned to love and cherish children more than I did before and realize just how special they really are. I have tried to be a better Aunt to my nieces and nephews and to let them know how much I love them.
 I don't have a lot to update on since I have kind of kept up on it this year. It has been 9 months since the little guy went back home. It still feels like I was just kissing his little face and putting him to bed just yesterday. He will always have a special place in our hearts and we will always love him very much. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him and miss him.
As of right now we are not doing any treatments until we are more financially stable and get an answer of what to do next. I started a new job at Allstate on April 15th where I have medical benefits again and can possibly do my surgery again for my endometriosis.
Only time will tell, until then I have to try and keep my head held high and my faith strong and try to wait patiently for my children to be born to me.